Can I have it please.......???

Aku bersyukur bisa mengenalmu, bisa berbincang, bercanda, bergurau dan bertukar pikiran denganmu.Kau sangat berfikiran dewasa, bisa menasehatiku layaknya seorang kakak,bisa membuatku tertawa layaknya seorang teman dekat, dan bisa membuatku nervous saat berada di sampingmu.Harapan itu kian hari semakin besar untuk bisa memilikimu, tapi ketika ku lihat lagi kau bukan milikku. Sedih..... itu ada, merasa kehilangan apalagi.... :(
Follback latar belakangku juga tak seindah dirimu, perbedaan itu semakin nyata adanyaaa....
Oohhh God... help me to solve this problem, i'm not gonna stuck on this forever!!!!
I wanna be stronger then i have ever thought.
I don't want to be FOOL in front of him.
I don't want to be very bad to him.
All i want is....... God please bring him to me, You're the ONLY ONE that can help me.
I TRUST YOU...
Will you help me???
He is too perfect for me, i'm a bad person i know that. But can I  have it please....???